What If God Was The Evil One?

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Originally written & published by a U.S.-based Facebook user and has since been shared widely across social media.

I found its perspective on the theist/atheist debate incredibly creative, insightful, and thought-provoking. It’s a very easy read, and if the movie Parasite lingered in your mind as it did in mine, I guarantee this essay will, too. I am sharing it here on my personal blog.


How does anybody know God is more moral than Satan? If it’s because the bible says so, then that is arbitrary and followers of the bible are basically just listening to God saying “I’m the good one, follow me.” If it’s due to observing actions and judging god’s actions to be better, then can’t we just use those standards to judge our actions, making god unnecessary? Besides, Satan hasn’t even bothered authoring a book and telling his side of the story.

What if God was actually the evil one and Satan was in fact good? After all, God is responsible for 250 million deaths, while Satan is responsible for only 10, all of which God commanded of him. If something bad happens like an earthquake or a Tsunami, we tend to call it ‘an act of god’ not an ‘act of the devil’. Why?

It beggars my belief that millions of ‘believers’ claim that god is good, when the ‘evidence’ from his alleged behaviours and teachings is so comprehensively the opposite. Throughout the bible there are numerous accounts of god dishing out divine punishment by way of genocide, plagues, ethnic cleansing, and the like. If the bible were the word of god, th aen god supports infanticide, slavery, torture genocide and all manner of death destruction and suffering. I do not know of any mention of the devil being blamed for such things.


Just take the Crucifixion as an example – the foundation of the Christian religion. This is nothing less than a human sacrifice, and purportedly to allow sinners to go free of punishment for their sins. What father would have his own son, a ‘good man’ by all accounts, brutally tortured and murdered so that ‘bad’ people could be let of their crimes? If the answer is that god loves us all and wants us to be forgiven why did he not just do that? Why insist on a bloodthirsty Crucifixion first?

God is clearly a tyrant. He has committed many acts of evil, and somehow managed to amass an incredible following. That means God must be the ultimate deceiver. He has painted Satan as the deceiver to disguise his own faults and gain worshipers in a classic manner. 

If the tyrannical dictator can condemn the good guy and convince enough people, he can get away with much evil. This is a ploy commonly used by skillful politicians and anyone who seeks personal gain at the expense of others. Furthermore, Satan purportedly rebelled against this evil tyrant, even though he was greatly outnumbered and faced an omnipotent being. That, according to our common beliefs, (as we praise military heroes who sacrifice themselves for the good of their nation) is not only admirable, but makes Satan a martyr.

The only thing that Satan is accused of doing ‘wrong’ was encouraging the naive Eve to eat from the tree of knowledge. Is knowledge a bad thing? Surely not. Knowledge has enabled mankind to cure infectious diseases, perform life saving surgery, feed the hungry, rescue victims of natural disasters in helicopters, lifeboats and the like.

God, who would deny us this knowledge, has, according to believers, punished the whole of mankind in perpetuity for this ‘original sin’, as well as punishing all species of snake for ever more by removing their legs! God, who supposedly can cure all these things by invoking miracles chooses not to, except for a few demonstrations of his alleged power by curing one leper victim – rather than eliminating leprosy, he will feed 5,000 with a loaf and a fish but will not eliminate starvation and hunger, make a blind man see but leave countless others still blind etc etc .

God is no more than a terrorist, that is why his followers are said to be ‘god fearing’. His followers must surely be evil at heart because they believe that we all (including themselves) would be incapable of being good, moral people unless we learn to ‘fear’ this tyrant and do his bidding, like Abraham who was terrorized to the brink of killing his own innocent son for fear of god’s wrath. How cruel and sadistic was that? OK so god let him off at the last minute, but if a human being did what god was supposed to have done in the Abraham story he or she would end up in prison, or maybe a psychiatric hospital.

What is it in the human psyche that facilitates such a mass delusion and failure of objectivity? Maybe the desire to a happy afterlife is so overwhelming that we (well the religious ‘believers’ at any rate’) turn a blind eye to god’s overwhelming propensity for evil. And isn’t that selfish and evil in it’s own way? Just as many ordinary Germans did not speak out against Hitler and the Nazis’ in the years leading up to and during the second World War for fear of risking their own necks. It’s clear that all religious people suffer from Stockholm syndrome since a common theme I have noticed in the Western religions is the idea that our earthly existence is one of suffering and only in death can we find release from this suffering, through salvation. But we can’t intentionally escape this suffering early (i.e. commit suicide), because that’s a sin. So we’re stuck in this world, one where we are doomed to suffer, until we are given the sweet release of death. Seems like a captive situation to me.

The underlying premise of Stockholm syndrome is the captor convinces the captives that he is capable of ending their life and is willing to do so, the captives believe it is safer to align with their captor and endure their captivity than to resist and face death. How does this compare to Christianity? Two words: Pascal’s Wager. Being God-fearing is a staple of classical Christian practices, and even outside of those religions, most religions (including all Western religions, to my knowledge) include something in their dogma about how being a believer in that religion is the only way to achieve salvation, and all who deny that religion, regardless of how they lived their lives and whether they were a moral person, will face eternal damnation. As such, it’s better to believe in a potentially non-existing deity for the chance at salvation than to reject that deity and risk damnation. The captives’ motivation to live outweighs their impulse to hate the person who created their dilemma. The idea of personal tragedy as a “test of faith” serves as testament to the legitimacy of this analogy.

Another characteristic of Stockholm Syndrome is the captives view the captor as being benevolent simply by virtue of his lack of malevolent actions, and are willing to overlook malevolence on the captor’s part if some kindness is shown. I don’t think this one is exclusive to the Christian God. How many of you have ever heard the phrase, “Count your blessings”? One of the important teachings of Christianity (and many religions, I would imagine) is to be thankful for what you have, rather than wanting more or wanting to have fewer of the things you don’t want. Now, someone who has had nothing but misery in their life would probably find it hard to believe in a loving God, just as someone who is held captive by a captor who is constantly tormenting them will grow to hate their captor. But just as captives focus on the brief showings of benevolence by their captor, so Christianity teaches its followers to be thankful for the blessings their Lord has given them, rather than resentful of him for the things that he has denied them or taken away. In the world’s poorest countries — those with average per-capita incomes of $2,000 or lower — the median proportion who say religion is important in their daily lives is 95%. In contrast, the median for the richest countries — those with average per-capita incomes higher than $25,000 — is 47%.


But even more than that, a big focus on Christian worship is being thankful for the things you still have, the things the Lord hasn’t taken away. Things like your family, your eyesight, your health—the things most people take for granted. This is one of the main points that lead me to consider the analogy between faith and Stockholm syndrome, because in a captive situation, captives begin to mistake a lack of abuse for kindness and develop feelings of appreciation for this mercy, which they perceive as actual benevolence, much like how religious people perceive not losing the things that are important to them as a blessing from their God. This is why believers have to construct miracles out of perfectly explicable natural events. This happens every time there is a tragedy or near tragedy of any kind, anywhere in the world. Take the batman shooting for example. 14 people died, 50 wounded, but somehow this tragic event yielded “miracles.” Captain “Sully” Sullenberger pilots a distressed plane to land safely on the Hudson River in New York City with no deaths, and it’s a miracle from God. Perhaps, just perhaps, God brought that plane down, and Satan saved it like an invisible Superman, or God sent that gunman into the theatre, but Satan saved all the people he could. 

I’m not suggesting that being thankful for the things we haven’t lost is a bad thing; I’m just pointing out that it bears a striking resemblance to what happens in a real-life captive situation (Stockholm syndrome). In real life, we consider Stockholm syndrome to be a paradox, a defence mechanism against an undesirable situation. In other words, it is considered irrational. The lucid opinion to hold is resentment towards your captor, not affection. So why isn’t the same judgement applied to faith? If we accept the dogmatic elements discussed above as true, why isn’t in considered lucid to resent such a God, rather than praise him?

Satan is the only deity who truly stands for free will. God threatens us with punishments for not adhering to his wishes. But Satan tells us that we should enjoy our lives and be happy and free to do what we think is right. 

If I believed in any kind of deity, I would most certainly worship Satan, become his devout follower and take up his noble fight against tyranny. Satan stands for justice, according to the biblical story, if you read it objectively. If only the story were true, he would be one of the greatest heroes in history, fighting what he surely knew would be a losing battle, but doing so for the sake of the greater good and to provide an example to the rest of us.

Just as the United States rebelled against British rule and gained their own freedom, Satan fought for freedom for all angels. Unfortunately, he lost the battle, which is a real tragedy.

All hail Satan! The true savior.

What are traits of a sociopath?

The defining traits of a sociopath often include an inability to genuinely care for others, to feel remorse, empathy, or even authentic love. This profound emotional disconnect means they don’t experience sincere obligations toward others and are incapable of feeling guilt for any harm they cause. Some characterize sociopaths as “charming,” but this is largely an illusion. Sociopaths don’t experience warmth or charm in the usual sense; rather, they mimic behaviors they’ve observed to create the appearance of charm, specifically tailoring their conduct to the individual they target. They analyze what their targets value—whether it’s family, pets, music, or hobbies—and manipulate these connections to “reel in” their victims, feigning shared interests and camaraderie. To a sociopath, these interactions are just a game. Gaining your trust allows them to start testing your boundaries to see what you’ll do to please them, but you are nothing more than a challenge or an amusement. Beneath the surface, they view you as a joke, deriving pleasure from manipulating your emotions. If you pay attention, you may sense early on that “something doesn’t feel right” in their behavior. Trust that instinct immediately.

The longer you remain in a relationship with a sociopath, the more likely you are to feel deeply demoralized, broken, and even pushed to the brink of despair. Sociopaths thrive on an inflated sense of self, constantly seeking validation by making others feel small. They often juggle multiple victims, skillfully hiding from you. If you catch them in a harmful act and confront them, they may feign remorse or claim they’ll “change.” But if you react emotionally—whether you break down, cry, plead, or scream—it only gratifies them further, feeding their twisted sense of power and control. And just as you think you’re done with them, they may reappear with an innocent DM, or dozens more SMS to assure you it wouldnt happen again. Leaving you questioning if they truly care. But it’s always the same cycle of deceit and emotional devastation. To a sociopath, you’re never more than a source of “supply”—an ego boost—and they feel no genuine attachment or love, not even for themselves. Sociopaths are often deeply insecure, their inner world a void filled with self-loathing and contempt.

Resist the urge to “save” or “heal” a sociopath by proving your loyalty or love. These efforts only reinforce their perception of you as a “pawn,” and they’ll take advantage of your commitment without ever reciprocating. They cannot be cured; no therapy or medication can restore a conscience they never had. The most crucial step you can take is toward self-preservation. Prolonged involvement with a sociopath can leave you psychologically damaged, potentially beyond repair. This is not just a warning but an essential truth. After spending 40 months with a sociopath, my own self-worth was crushed. If you identify these traits in someone you’re involved with, take decisive action: walk away, cut off all contact, and never look back. Sociopaths don’t have “friends”—they collect people for their own benefit. Any future contact is simply a test to see if you’re still susceptible to manipulation. For your own well-being, run—and keep running. I share this from experience. Trust me, you will thank yourself for it.

1. Manipulative


As long as he was not the one who get affected, he has no repercussions of his action. So what he wants how he wants anything to go is the prize, in the mean time, whom he may hurt in the process does not matter to him. He would persuade, lie to manipulate to get what he wants with no remorse and guilt, not even a tiny bit.

Con has made me feeling so guilty for 40 months to let me to surrender control to him completely. From physically switching my day and night habits, to planning my life around his schedule to 110% emotional dependency. This method is the best way to secure his needs are met, and since his own needs come first, that is all that matters. What others think, feel, need, and want does not matter. He is an evil manipulator who take advantage of and turn other’s emotional sensitivity and sympathy to help him get what he wants.
He abused my kindness and helpfulness and reeled me in to help him to fund his new sex-nest, drug-infused promiscuous sex lifestyle plus other things such as using me to purchase items he is fond of, bringing him goods from New York City where he couldn’t find in Europe or Asia, etc…

Dealing a Evil’s Warning Signs

There’s nothing worse than finding out that someone you thought you could trust and willing to sacrifice almost everything you had built and throwing away everything to be with is apparently nothing like what you believed him/her to be. Exhibit A – myself!
I had stopped blaming myself for not knowing because Con is skilled in deception and manipulation, like parasites which take advantage of his marks to get to where he wants to achieve and careless about you, the host’s wellbeing. Besides the obvious being inconsiderate and selfish, he has no qualms hurting anyone who is in his way to get what he wants!
For the next few blog posts, I will be writing a few signs I have learnt from Con that shows he is straightly a born evil sociopath… Stay tuned!

Con Never Admits Any Mistakes When Confronted (Even the Most Horrendous Ones)

It seems like yesterday that when Con admitted he had slept with another person(s) in his 2014-15 Christmas Poland trip, which was only 1 month after he soundly promised to only hookup with those selected 5-fuckbuddy rule. He said he enjoyed it so much with Chem sex, which I thought it was just a line or two of cocaine, I did not suspect it was meth at all back in 2015 January.
Why I bring this up is because when he was telling me the story, he never apologized for breaking his promise, yet he rationalized for doing that would help him make it easier to leave his boyfriend to be with me. In other words, he rationalized it was all for me…
I was silent back then to process what he just said. On the surface he made it sounded like he was doing something for me… quickly my logic kicked in and it didn’t make sense. He was justifying his cheating behavior on my expense. What difference does it make by having one more cheat than those dozen of cheats he fucked behind his boyfriend’s back?
No matter what Con has done, he never ever genuinely apologize for anything(except the time he wanted to borrow money from me). Instead, any time he felt he had to get out of any explanation, he would insult me with a halfbaked-apology then negate the apology he had just made with justifications, qualifications or self-pity. Moreover, later on when I read some articles about narcissistic behavior and came to realize he never really truly sorry for anything that he did. If he apologize, he would just do a “fauxpology” (a false apology.) Our relationship after 2015 was filled with these fauxpologies :

  • “I am sorry but there is nothing I can do about it.” (I asked him why he kept asking me if I have brought him new jockstraps from USA, but yet he said he was not in mood for sex at all with me because he was so stressed.)
  • “I am sorry you feel so insecure because I haven’t returned any of your hundreds of SMS over the week!” (On that day I loaned him another $20,000, Con said he would go out to brunch the day after, but ghosted me for a week, of course, he cashed the cheque immediately.)
  • “I am sorry you came up with crazy mind-made stories of me cheating and lying, I was just busy working you are over-sensitive and paranoid! You made up all these stories and fit me into it, you are crazy!”
  • “Stop asking for intimacy time, you are being so selfish! I am stressed from work, with my boyfriend’s eyes on me 24/7. It’s not always about you, I have a life too, you are just using me for sex!” (He already broken up and living on his own having sex party all the time!)

A narcissist never admits even horrendous mistakes and when confronted, Con, a classice narcissist is never, ever wrong, and he likes to present “proof” that he is correct. The narcissist cannot accept responsibility for making a mistake and he is expert at diverting the blame to others – (“It’s not my fault. I lost that Starbucks job because I felt so embarrassed to stay there after the debt collection was exposed”, “You were acting so outrageous pushing me away, your help of money did not matter, you made me hate you, ”, “If you didn’t take so long to leave your Boyfriend, I wouldn’t have the desire to not tell you I have moved out from my ex for two years!”). A narcissist will never admit even horrendous mistakes and when confronted, he will deflect, delay and tell more lies. He believes he is invincible and perfect.

Funnily a narcissist can also have a fragile ego. ALWAYS confidently standing HIS ground and not backing down EVEN HE KNOWS HE IS SO SO WRONG. psychological rigidity seems like a sign of strength but in contrary it is a weakness. By warping HIS very perception of reality and challenge obvious facts in order to defend himself for not being wrong in the first place. HE IS compelled to stubbornly holding his ground is to protect his delicate & fragile ego.

Feather Flocks Together

Unemployment and Chem Sex Together

Extra Extra! Today I have met an fuckbuddy of Con, they met about 2015 early through Chem sex condomless sex. He is a filipino trainer at a gym. Back then they had each others company and spent a lot of naked time together doing drugs because they both were jobless. Something in common. That also was the time Con had ended his relationship with his ex and moved into his sex nest using my money at Central Mansion. They were on and off in and out chem hi sexing for a couple years and they haven’t seen each other since Con’s father passed away in 2018 November.

OUT of Commission

The way Con had treated me is an extreme unfortunate for me, yet he lied and turned the story around, accusing my debt collector had interrupted his worklife at Starbucks, causing him to resign due to embarasment.
What a prick, even his lawyer is a prick to even believe that’s 1% true!
Beside Donald Trump, Con is probably the most ridiculous liar. Starbucks had put him on probation since 2018 April, his ex Fiance could be the witness, he also told him Starbucks had reasons to believe Con has been on drugs daily and under influence at work. The post on Starbucks website regarding his debt became a reason to let go by Starbucks but they were graceful enough to ask Con to resign on his own so it will look not as bad as being fired when he tries to land on another job on his resume.

That same lawyer who he probably have “good relation” (Apparently early mornings they went to shop at IKEA together, that kind of good relations) who had gagged me on Memorial Day weekend 2018, forcing me to take the site offline, my story, my truth being zipped up.

I will not be bullied. It will be offline, that doesnt mean it’s over. In fact, check back within a year… I WILL BE BACK!

Judgement Day Eve

I have named May 17 2017 as My Judgment Day!
Therefore in a few hours, it will be one year anniversary of being diagnosed as HIV positive. Forever thanks to Con who had given me a gift that keeps on giving. I will always remember how he firmly denied being responsible for my infection. The way he worded it could not be more jackass and inhumane especially when I approached him, I had no intention for blaming him, I was merely informing him that he had given me his virus. It was never a case for me to sue him hiding his status when we met for months yet.

He loves to ejaculate before pulling out, and its true that everytime was enclosed in a condom, but who can 100% guarantee it didn’t leak. Plus through that period probably till now, Con enjoys his bareback marathon Chem-sex with strangers, lack of sleep leads to poor immune system. He only bloodcheck his viral and T-cell twice a year, therefore the probability for him having windows of detachable status is pretty high. No matter he admits it or not, it would not change the fact that I inherited his incurable disease. He is not man enough to say sorry or apologize for any of his wrong doing is on

him. He will eventually be judged, he will then pay the price. The sad thing is I had been as prudy as one could imagine and being so extra careful throughout my 20s and 30s to try to be STD free. I lost that war to love, for loving someone too much giving him too much became his weapon, I lost the most valuable — health and dignity to a heartless sociopath. The pre-Meth Con that I knew would feel guilty for infected his ex from Poland. This new promiscuous sex- drugs-addicted Con, he probably is so Damn proud for being a HIV host! Almost equivalent to men in the straight-world who want to impregnate women spread seeds to father as many children as possible to feed their egos. I think Con definitely is on that roadmap. Why? Again because he has nothing really to proud of; not his epic failure career., not his interpersonal skills, except his interfluid- exchange skill with his chem-sex community in Sheung Wan and WuTong sauna.

Moreover, his denial of using drugs or any of his wrong doing upon me, are a complete showcase of what kind of a small childish person he is, compared to a 5year old toddler, someone irresponsible, elementary, argumentative, self-righteous, ghosting, unreliable and dishonest. Never takes on any blame, nothing is his fault, he is a saint with no mistakes made. He could lie in your face after peeing on your leg and says it’s rainning,

He feels he is immune to bad decisions, his judgement is always right because he is never the reason for anything that has happened to him or others, it is never his fault. If one could not even admit his personal choices and mistakes in his life, do you think he would be someone who would take responsibility in the working world? If so, within 3 years, he would not be ejected from one firm and got fired by Starbucks. I admire his new work partner’s thick stubborn face

and bravery almost ignorant. He must have been drinking Con’s Coolaid or other body fluids to be this mesmerized. I cannot wait to see what kind of disaster coming to their partnership and then I will be there and say “I told you so!”

If it’s true there will be a Judgement Day right before the end of world, I would even pay to see his prosecution and how many lives this sociopath soulless being, Con had infected and destroyed throughout his sexcapade trashy messy promiscuous chem-sex lifestyle! His gut and tongue will be cropped out so his ego will bust and lies will end. Anyone will probaby see his photo next to the eternal purgatory poster as the definition of forbidden or will never be. Forgiven. No holy water can prep him for heaven nor hell, he is not purifiable because he has no heart or soul.

There is a Chinese saying, ” !” Translation to something like “At end of the day, the ugly-wife has to meet the new father in law…” It means, the truth will prevail, or anything bad someone did with shame in the shade, it will have to come to the light.

I cannot wait for a day when I can use a speaker or mic to tell the press, the judge or friends and family and to Jesus Christ if he is real of what Con had put me through, no one gets away with murder! This memoir is part of the process. Instead of crying at home, and repeat the incomplete story to friends on occasions, I flaunted the silver lining to the world. They can judge me, I have to be brave, I have to be strong, and keep telling myself, THE TRUTH is THE TRUTH, no pathological lies can cover the truth, not even Con the professional heartless soul can escape the TRUTH!

I was infected by Con, I was cheated by Con, I was used by Con, Iwas played to the T, neglected, discarded by Con. If I didn’t find out he was dating another person and shattered his plan, I bet you he would kept me around for ego-boosting time and manipulation! Till to this day, he hasn’t been in any form of communication and hasn’t been paying me back. I have been left with no choice by start my case against him. It will cost more money than the amount he owes me to hire a lawyer, but that’s not Plan B.

Plan B is coming, and I do not think anyone can stop Plan B, it is out of my hands… let’s see where the wheel of fortune dial end up at! Wait, it’s a bird, it’s a plane, no, it’s KARMA! Karma is coming to town early!

To be continued…

GHOSTING

Ghosting is having someone who you believe cares about and for you, whether it be a friend or someone you are dating, disappear from contact without any explanation at all. No phone call or email, not even a text. Cold turkey! Con is definitely a ghost!

Ghosting can result in feelings of being disrespected, used and disposable. Espexially I have known Con beyond a few dates and that is why it was traumatic. The pain of deep betrayal feeling is unbearable especially if these disengagements were brought by our beloved and trusted ones!

I felt idiotic so played as a fool. Beyond disrespected. Take the romance away, to have a great connection with a new friend and then all of a sudden never hear from him again? That’s painful and really disappointing. No one deserves to be blown off especially I have helped him so much!

The lack of closure is maddening. He thought he found someone better and decided to move on, but not before my self esteem takes a hit. The only thing worse than being broken up with is realizing that someone didn’t even consider you worth breaking up with and then telling you how disgusted he has been and he hates you to his core! Con is definitely a horrible human being who beyond ungrateful and with no respect to anyone around him unless you are still Useful to him. This includes his back together boyfriend. Con punched his face, took money from his PayPal account, and then cheated on him with a village of people then dumbed his ass after. But Con needed his lawyer friend and he is lonely, one phone call crazy ex got back together. We will see when Con will betray him agai. This time he probably will check into psychward.. who knows, like the hair stylist said they are both closeted meth users!

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