Judgement Day Eve

I have named May 17 2017 as My Judgment Day!
Therefore in a few hours, it will be one year anniversary of being diagnosed as HIV positive. Forever thanks to Con who had given me a gift that keeps on giving. I will always remember how he firmly denied being responsible for my infection. The way he worded it could not be more jackass and inhumane especially when I approached him, I had no intention for blaming him, I was merely informing him that he had given me his virus. It was never a case for me to sue him hiding his status when we met for months yet.

He loves to ejaculate before pulling out, and its true that everytime was enclosed in a condom, but who can 100% guarantee it didn’t leak. Plus through that period probably till now, Con enjoys his bareback marathon Chem-sex with strangers, lack of sleep leads to poor immune system. He only bloodcheck his viral and T-cell twice a year, therefore the probability for him having windows of detachable status is pretty high. No matter he admits it or not, it would not change the fact that I inherited his incurable disease. He is not man enough to say sorry or apologize for any of his wrong doing is on

him. He will eventually be judged, he will then pay the price. The sad thing is I had been as prudy as one could imagine and being so extra careful throughout my 20s and 30s to try to be STD free. I lost that war to love, for loving someone too much giving him too much became his weapon, I lost the most valuable — health and dignity to a heartless sociopath. The pre-Meth Con that I knew would feel guilty for infected his ex from Poland. This new promiscuous sex- drugs-addicted Con, he probably is so Damn proud for being a HIV host! Almost equivalent to men in the straight-world who want to impregnate women spread seeds to father as many children as possible to feed their egos. I think Con definitely is on that roadmap. Why? Again because he has nothing really to proud of; not his epic failure career., not his interpersonal skills, except his interfluid- exchange skill with his chem-sex community in Sheung Wan and WuTong sauna.

Moreover, his denial of using drugs or any of his wrong doing upon me, are a complete showcase of what kind of a small childish person he is, compared to a 5year old toddler, someone irresponsible, elementary, argumentative, self-righteous, ghosting, unreliable and dishonest. Never takes on any blame, nothing is his fault, he is a saint with no mistakes made. He could lie in your face after peeing on your leg and says it’s rainning,

He feels he is immune to bad decisions, his judgement is always right because he is never the reason for anything that has happened to him or others, it is never his fault. If one could not even admit his personal choices and mistakes in his life, do you think he would be someone who would take responsibility in the working world? If so, within 3 years, he would not be ejected from one firm and got fired by Starbucks. I admire his new work partner’s thick stubborn face

and bravery almost ignorant. He must have been drinking Con’s Coolaid or other body fluids to be this mesmerized. I cannot wait to see what kind of disaster coming to their partnership and then I will be there and say “I told you so!”

If it’s true there will be a Judgement Day right before the end of world, I would even pay to see his prosecution and how many lives this sociopath soulless being, Con had infected and destroyed throughout his sexcapade trashy messy promiscuous chem-sex lifestyle! His gut and tongue will be cropped out so his ego will bust and lies will end. Anyone will probaby see his photo next to the eternal purgatory poster as the definition of forbidden or will never be. Forgiven. No holy water can prep him for heaven nor hell, he is not purifiable because he has no heart or soul.

There is a Chinese saying, ” !” Translation to something like “At end of the day, the ugly-wife has to meet the new father in law…” It means, the truth will prevail, or anything bad someone did with shame in the shade, it will have to come to the light.

I cannot wait for a day when I can use a speaker or mic to tell the press, the judge or friends and family and to Jesus Christ if he is real of what Con had put me through, no one gets away with murder! This memoir is part of the process. Instead of crying at home, and repeat the incomplete story to friends on occasions, I flaunted the silver lining to the world. They can judge me, I have to be brave, I have to be strong, and keep telling myself, THE TRUTH is THE TRUTH, no pathological lies can cover the truth, not even Con the professional heartless soul can escape the TRUTH!

I was infected by Con, I was cheated by Con, I was used by Con, Iwas played to the T, neglected, discarded by Con. If I didn’t find out he was dating another person and shattered his plan, I bet you he would kept me around for ego-boosting time and manipulation! Till to this day, he hasn’t been in any form of communication and hasn’t been paying me back. I have been left with no choice by start my case against him. It will cost more money than the amount he owes me to hire a lawyer, but that’s not Plan B.

Plan B is coming, and I do not think anyone can stop Plan B, it is out of my hands… let’s see where the wheel of fortune dial end up at! Wait, it’s a bird, it’s a plane, no, it’s KARMA! Karma is coming to town early!

To be continued…